Mommy's home

Hey all,

Long time no talk. I wanted to give an update. I was dismissed from the hospital on Thursday, April 1st around 4:30 pm. That day was much harder than I could've imagined.

During the week I was in the hospital, I sent Charles home few nights to see if he could get some sleep. No use in the both of us being grumpy. Guinevere stayed with me in the hospital those nights... Since she is a night owl anyway, it made sense to have someone on the night shift and someone on the day shift. But when Charles came back that first morning away and I asked him if he slept, he said "not much..."

I couldn't understand but he said, "Just wait, it is really hard to be away from all you guys sitting at home alone. I ended up sleeping on the couch watching TV to keep my mind off things."

Well, Charles is a wise man. The day I had to go home and leave those girls at the hospital was soooooo hard. I cried most of the morning, and when I went to visit them in the NICU, I would start crying again. I stayed as long as I possibly could to the last afternoon feeding, but ultimately I had to go home. I eventually was comforted by the fact that we would be required to visit them a couple of times a day for feedings.

Charles took me to the house after picking up my pain meds, and I came home to a clean house, dinner made and fresh flowers in every room. Aunt Gigi makes a hell of a welcome home party! :-) The three of us ate chicken enchiladas, discussed the upcoming schedule of feedings, and off I was to bed.

At 9:00 pm, we headed back to the hospital to do our first "from home" feeding. The girls didn't know any different of course, but for me, it took some getting used to. We had to store all our accessories in the NICU instead of in our large comfortable room. Now we breastfeed in this small little side room. Hey, it's better than being out in the open!

The life lesson learned from this experience is that many times, we have to make hard decisions that, although are tough for us and not in our personal best interest, are ultimately in the best interests of our children. Ahhhh....parenthood... :-) Here we come!